workaholic

finally bec from working ade==
2day,i m going to complain n pour out all my
unhappy,frustrated,sad,helpless feelingss here
please allow me to do so
all of the them were being piled up like a mountain inside my heart ade
i must express them out
otherwise
i muz be a problematic "teenager"
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i have to work once i have some extra leisure time
juz like i'm supposed not to have any free time
i have to work as long as i'm in home
have to run here n there to work
haiz...
i have to neglect all my books n assignments
once i'm in home
so my life is fulled of messy
i have ignore all my thg
becoz of working
i'm tension

so i used to give up all my bad feelings
through wat u know?
SHOPPING SHOPPING SHOPPING
i'm really sad
when i've started become so uncontrollable?????
in spending
i spend at least rm100-300 per week
juz in shopping
are u think this is too much for a college girl????
YA!!!i have to say
it is too much for me
i was a bit scared
when i realized this bad habit last month
so i started to record all my incomes n spending
since last month

although the amount that i spent in shopping
was quite scary
but i was able to cover all my expenses
n i even have rm800++ remaining after
deducting all the expenses
thanks God
at least i able to keep some savings
otherwise, i'll be very guilty

i became even sad
as i only have the time to study in midnight
last night
i studied E-commerce until 2am
but i really dont know wat m i studying
pretty sad for me
i'm a person who have zero knowledge on computer aspect
so this subject is a challenge for me
although i have scored all As in my previous computer papers
i m still worry for this paper the most
as its standard is higher n the lecturer is sucksss
who i have mentioned before
the 56 years old woman

unhappy feeling:
i have to take all the heavy soup n stuff
during my working
this made the ache all over my body
especially for my hands & neck
very painful n uncomfortable
hate such feelings
juz like i have became an old "nenek"
hehehe

distress feeling:
i have bought a pair of diamond earing
last 2months,i think
which costs me nearly rm600
as my body cannot accept any fake stuff
n even "cheap" but true stuff
swt==!!!
so i have no choice but to buy an expensive earing
otherwise i'll going to lose my ear holes
but after wearing the earing
my ears started to get hurted n became festuring
feel so distress
as my ears still dont wan accept such expensive stuff
wat a wastage
wont be wearing it until my wound recover
sad~~~
u wont understand how distress m i
RM600 u know???!!!
now my ears get so pain as well as my heart
haizzz...
may be i shall buy an even expensive earing for myself
but not now
may be in future
when i step out to society n working
if my ears still dun wan to accept it???!!!
going to give up then@@
but according to my experience
i think my ears will accept lah~~

okay..i think it is enough for me
hahaha
thx for listening all my complaintsss
need to leave now
have to work at night
hopefully 2nite wont be a big war for me
as 2day is Deepavali
will be quite busy for us=)
anyway,going to wish all my friends:
HAPY DEEPAVALI^@^