moody

moody again@@
so down
no reasons...
juz feeling down
i'm just feeling tired once i think i still have many books and works to go
these whole two weeks will be like hell for me
many tuition classes have to be rescheduled
many relatives married somemore
n my father forced me to attend
sienzzz

so more tuition classes need to be rescheduled
but i really dun have the no.8th day in a week
why force me??!!!
where to find time for the replacement classes??
i need to study too
why all parents choose this time to add on class
haizzz
hate hate hate

now i have to work more days to my parents
as there are 2workers resign at once
headache..i cant go bec penang to study
have to work for them during night
why god treats me like that?
please find a way for me...
=(

made me til no mood to study now
sad...sad...sad...
down...down...down..
hope that there are additional 2hours for me per day
i'm so helpless now
cant concentrate at all
plz help me,god.
brings me to a peace n cozy place for me to rest!!!
heaven???!!!!@@
aikzzzz..

better go n study will do..byez

exam lor

oreo ice cream^^

my salmon value set=)

hey,moody now lah~~~
everybody sure dun have good mood while exam is approaching
now i'm just lazy for anythg
but to study@@
this time,i have to prepare well
my target is to get the merit rewards again=)
but sound difficult for me this time
the subjects are quite tough as it has came to the end of my course
so the level may be higher
luckily only three subjects for this sem

all the lecturers have released our assignments bec to us
erm..mine one?
juz moderate lah
haha..

bec to this week
this week was our officially last week of the sem
felt reluctant to our beloved lecturers
wakaka
erm..no movie for this week again
i think we have not watched movie for several weeks lor
as we have no mood at all@@
too many thg happened and both of us
are tired with working at weekends
so we choose to stay at hostel n rest
not bad lar..can save more money too

but we also did not forgot to treat ourselves a good meal^^
so that to reward ourselves by working hard
both of us are japanese food lovers
thus, we went to queensbay de Azuma japanese restaurant
that were our first time visit
although we have looking forward there for long time ago

the environment and design over there is nice n awesome
i ordered myself a salmon value set n i have forgt bi's order
but what i knew was chicken one
the only imperfect thg is that the variety of sushi there are very limited
compared to my favorite,sushi king
anyway,have a good time there
hope that we can visit there next time
oh ya,i also bought myself a long-sleeve blouse
n a bag during the MNG big sales
felt so happy

recently,my tuition classes increase again
as one of the parent request me to add on another class for their child
now my schedule become packer
=.=!!!
feeling tired once a while
anyway, that's my responsibility
so add oil lah~~
continue moody@@
bye..

sienzz

now is quite late ade
but still have to write my blog
coz i know that i have neglected it for too long times
so paiseh~~~

recently,the local government universities have announced their
student lists and course offered to them
many received what they want
but there are somebody didnt gt what they want also
n my best friend-yanfen is one of the victim
her result is excellent
n she has been offered to the UM
but the course offered to her horrr
haiz..is totally non-related to her study area
which is engineer
she supposed to study the biology field ma@@
so blurrr blurr blurr one
haiz..
anyway,good luck n best wishes to her
take care urself ya^^

oh ya,talk abt myself
this week is quite busy for me
this time is not related to my working
but my studies..haha
have mentioned that i have sit for a test and a presentation
erm..overall is okay for me
the test was not too difficult for me
n the presentation part,
erm..was counted as smoothly gua,isn't??==???
anyway,good luck to me,friends...
but the next day after the presentation,
lecturer told us that there were some mistakes we have made
so i spent my whole friday time to edit n correct it
sad~~wasted my time only

but glad=) coz i can finish editing it...
luckily the lecturer pointed out our false
as i have given a copy of our slides to her
thus,she can look more detailed n clearly into our assignment
then she realized that there were some "big problems" inside
wakaka
if not our group may score a low mark..
thx god~~

next tuesday will goin to have another assignment for counting
haiz..it always caused me uncomfortable
as the tables provided in the statistics class are too short for all of us
everytime,we have to bow our heads down
n do the calculation very seriously
erm..for almost 3hours per class
this often made us almost fainted after the class@@
this also made me hate statistics class
although i may like calculation==!!!

there is also a problem existed to me again
i hate problems...
the money-face statistics lecturer want to add on an additional class
b4 the final
i knew he wants to earn more
so he just find a day n add on the class
although i'm not free at that particular time
coz the YANG MULIA wan me to tolerate with another 3guys'times
haiz..still thinking that whether wan to attend for it
coz i have two tuition classes for that particular times
hey,u need to earn more money,so u add on a class
n i also need money to study,k?
what the lousy excuses they gave to u??!!!
n me???i'm working but they leh??
i'm a teacher also
i have to be responsible
always rescheduled the class with my students are strictly not allowed
as i been forced to reschedule it during my final exam week ade
so i hope that there is no necessary for me to reschedule it again
although i understd that an additional class will benefit us
but haiz~~~hope i can make it anyway
coz i'm a full-attendance student

now is almost 2.00am
need to sleep ade@@
byezzz

no working for 2day=)
but have a tuition class
n the same for 2moro
as one of the parents have canceled the tuition class for 2moro
they wanna hanging-out
it benefits me too
by only having a tuition class

as i need to spend more times in my studies too
the exam is just around the corner(>.<)
now my job is to ensure others score high marks
so i have to be a good role model to them too
wakakaka

now is helping my student do her sch"project"
hahaha...
dun scold me yet
actuallythe homework is an english essay which is related to the global issue
n she has no idea abt the article
as she is in form one only
so quite difficult for her to complete the long essay by her own
in addition,all her irresponsible group members went lost during holidays
so she is struggling n worry(++)
frightened cant complete it by this week
thus,i volunteered to help her do
as it does not carry any marks but is just a project
n it is easy n simple for my standard too==!!!
eh,i'm not showing off=.=
wakaka

haih..the times like flying away from us very fast
now have almost come to the end of this semester
so fast de??!!!
anyway,that's mean my holiday is approaching also
but i'm feel neither happy nor excited
holiday means working n boring n dull for me
the only advantage of holiday is my income will increase lorrr
gud or not leh???!!!++
may consider as good la horr??
hahaha..

okla,need to stop here ade!!!
byebye(^6^)

my routine

hey..juz bec from working
tonite the business was quite gud again
as recently are sch holiday seasons
so the business will more or less be better

bi arrived my working place at around 11pm
his face was pale like a paper
i knew him is tired n very tired
as he recently works two jobs per day during weekends
pity him
wakaka

after i bathing,bi cant accompanied me to chit-chat
as he cant stand with the sleepiness anymore
thus,he drove bec home after i settled all my stuff
after he left, i just sat alone at the living room sofa
waiting for my mum bec
as i wan to open door for her
n i started observing my pair of hands
it looks rough,ugly n reddish
the skin all are peeling-off,like an old lady's hands=.=!!!
haizz
this is caused by the long-term heavy works
felt the very sadness from my heart
as most of my previous secondary sch classmates knew
i liked to keep my finger nails long in the past
n my world record is 2cm..haha
as i juz reluctant to cut it although the weekly assembly was approached
but after graduated, i no longer kept my nails long
even once also didnt
i have to maintain my finger nails short n clean from time to time
n cant even applied the nail color on it
as i'm involving in food sector
haih...

n everytime my mum noticed that
she would approach me n comfort me said that
"this is a pair of hardworking hand,so is the most beautiful one,dun b sad"
hahaha...this always comfort me deeply n make me lively again
thank you for comforting again..haha
as she knew i have scacrificed many in working with them

while i renewed my identity card in last year
the authority there had declared that i lost my almost 70% of fingerprints
n he adviced me to consult a skin specialist
if not,i will encounter lots of problem in future
such as going overseas n withdraw a large amount money from bank
n i have consulted a skin specialist after that
he said that my skin is too allergic for the oily thg
as it is inheritance by the gene++
haha...ya,actually my skin is belongs to a quite allergic category
cannot wear fake n cheap jewellery n watches
i just can wear gold n stainless steel
sometimes even iron button of jeans will make my skin itchy n festering
so it cannot be cured
n the doctor gave me 2 alternatives
first-stop working
second-wearing glove while working

==!!! i knew in my heart that these two alternatives were useless for me
hahaha..first 100% no need to be considered
second-its really inconvenience for me by wearing a glove while working
n it will slow down my working pace
n i need to walk in and out at all the times
this will make customers shocked
as they thought that this is too exaggerating for a hawker
like we not yet reach on such a high hygienic level
wakaka
so i did not turn up to him anymore after that time

hahaha...although the condition is getting serious in once a while
as the fingers will swollen like a red strawberry
sound weird,isn't??
hahaha...anyway,have tried variety of medical lotions before
but they seems useless for me..aikzzzz
so wat to do is to confess that this is my own fate lorrrr...
hehe(>.<)

waow~~~i'm more admire myself now
can talk on the nails n hands topic until so long
like writing a novel~~~wakaka..paise
i know that it is too verbose..paise again(^0^)
anyway,thx for ur patient
by complete reading the whole "essay"

oh ya,2day have finished two tuition classes
n i lost my temper again during my tuition class
the child is too obtuse for such a easy question
as i know,he did not understand every question in the reference books
its sound too serious n exaggerating???!!!
n the fact is yes!!!
he dun know for most of the questions..
i'm begging him to remember all the solutions
that i have teached him
n he juz cant remember any of them

at the moment,i felt very pity for all the teachers
who can engaged themselves in the educational work for decades
i'm admire n respect them,thank you all my teachers
who have conveyed the knowledge for me,SALUTE
the patience that they gave us were the most precious one
THANK YOU,TEACHERS N MOTHERS!!
HAHAHA

anyway,i'm totally losing all my energy
feeling so tired~~@@sleepy mode now
wakaka..
this is all for 2day
bye n gud night guys*v*

cousins

hey fellow cousinsssss

juz now i gt scolded ade~~~

hahaha

who is the one that exposed all the thg??

herm???!!!

anyway,the purpose of me to write all these in my blog

is to share my life here to all of u

n not to complain here n there

until now the news had arrived on the grandma's ears

=.=!!!

so efficient~~~

wakaka

n i'm not scolding at anybody here

next time,plz keep as a secret among us

otherwise,i will stop writing on my blog alrdy

k????dun make the adults worry

n i will stand out n speak it out

if anythg too serious happening...

okla,bye..

oh ya,wan to wish all my cousins here

hope all of u can do best in ur studies n obtain flying color results ya^^

all the best=) n dun be busybody alrdy..haha

academic

haih..a dull afternoon
hot hot hot
2day morning woke up at 11am
erm..i think it is quite early for me
haha

yesterday when i rushed bec from penang
faced a traffic congestion again
luckily can arrive on the stall at 730pm
as the main stall assistant was on leave
so i have to rush bec to replace his job
in addition,my father now has totally refused to help us ad
so we have to do it all ourselves
luckily,the business was went smoothly
not very rushing

but i'm very tired coz i worked until the midnight
n this made me cough even more serious
until i cannot slept well in yesterday night
a tough life n big challenge for me again
anyway,no tuition class for 2day
so can spend my time to finish my assignment=)

now my house is more peaceful
no more noisy quarrel voice
but now my father always found trouble for my mum
haiz...why there is such a childish man in this world
who is going enter his 50years old???!!!

anyway,now my responsibility is to study hard
as there is a test of financial management in next wednesday
n a presentation at thursday==!!!
hope my group members n i can do well in the presentation
po pi po pi!!!wakaka
bye@@

thank you

hey..i'm bec again
firstly,wan to say tq to everybody that try to comfort me n encourage me
secondly,wan to apologize bcoz of i did not reply to any of u
i'm totally out of mood to mention abt this matter again
n also embarrassing for me to share my ugliest face to u all
now only realized that we may need lots of friends in our lives
but we may not need lots of good friends in our lives
a couple of comfort words from ur own good friends will be enough
erm..u may confused what i trying to express
anyway,i juz feel grateful there're still many good friends in my lives
thx=)

anyway,we are okay currently
me n my sister always called bec to my mum from time to time
til my mum start to feel too exaggerating
wakaka
as her daughters,we juz wan to prove our loves to our beloved mum
n let our father know,the two daughters are standing on mum's side
try to warn him not to bully my mum continuously
we are big ade
n we can fight for the fairness for our mum
n can bring her out from this evil house after couples of years
this is the big warning
n i'm happy inside my heart when i heard from my mum that
my jiejie will be goin bec to malaysia earlier two months
to look after my mum

here,goin to mention my mum a bit
my mum is only a primary-sch educated woman
but she is such a "wisdomly-fulled" woman until
she can grow two smart daughters
she always told us that have to study hard
so that dun like her
need to work like a cow n earn little penny
so,me n jiejie study very hard since small
but i'm not as smart as my jiejie la
wakaka
but considered as not bad gua^^
my jiejie obtained straight A1 in her spm
n now study at australia by obtaining JPA
this is the thg my mum very proud of..hehe
n me,i applied nth during secondary sch
i have chosen to study in private sector
but by choosing this path,i can stay longer time in house
before i further studies in KL
so can look after my mum at the same time
hahaha

oh ya,bec to the story again
when i called bec to my mum during tuesday
my father still "KI SIAO"
always scold like a mad person also
but luckily 2day not yet get scolded
thx god

but juz now received a bad news from mum as well
my father turns up to gamble again
==!!!
we as a christian
gamble supposed strictly prohibited
n he has stop gamble for nearly two years
but now bec to gamble again
i feel really unhappy
although he has win for almost 3consecutive times in these few days
(dun know why he is so lucky??!!!)
as he always cant control himself in whatever thg once he likes it
in addition,by winning so frequently will encourage him to gamble continuously

haizzzzzzzzz
sighing sighing n sighing
watever la
i'm fall in sick
too bad
sore throat,flu and cough all came n found me at once
but luckily,fever did not found me out=)
wakaka
anyway,have to recover soon
coz 2moro have a fully-packed schedule
whole day classes n working at night for my mum
tough life for me
but happy coz can go bec n c my mum ade
yipeeeeeeeeeee^^
now is 1.05am ade
gud night all xD

trouble

hello fellow frienz...
i'm totally fed up n feel trouble now
currently,my family is in a mess
totally messing up
help..
y i have such a father???!!!
who like 2 quarrel at every time
now my house is juz like a boom
dun noe when goin to explode

actually,the story is like that
recently our family is finding a new house
n my father juz dun has a little penny in his acc
but he juz requires my mum 2 tk out 200k
hey,come on
y u think mum is like very rich?
haiz....
my father is that type of person that totally dun noe how to manage money
n he will juz spend in many unnecessary thg as he gt some money in his pocket

eg.(i)borrow money to others
(the person did not wan 2 borrow money from my father,
but is my father who automatic take the money to them)
hey,he juz like a santa claus,why did not wan 2 give me?

(ii)buy a new car n sell it out within 5months,
which made us lost nearly 10k

(iii)called my mum to give him FULL CASH to buy a camry/accord
luckily,we have succeeded to stop him

that's why he still saves zero money in his bank acc
after doing business for 4years plus plus
n the business is profitable as me also involve in manage the business money
n everytime when he end up with no money,
he will come bec n quarrel with my mum again
said that all the business income was taken by my mum
hey,plz la
is my mum who manage the whole business
why cant she even to take a small amount of salary??!!
n he juz sit aside everytime n dun even wan 2 help us
no wonder how busy we are..
that's why i have to help my mum whenever i'm free
if i refuse to help, my father will chase me out from home@@
wat i m telling is the truth as i have been chased out once b4
that's why i cried out myself b4 when there was a college girl
criticized me that i dun wan 2 mix with them n have no friends in college
hey,i have no choice but to work
i cannot like others n "u",can have ur own free time during weekends

anyway,now he wan 2 buy a house which is worth almost 400k
n now he wants my mum to take money out
but he wont pay a single cent
n somemore..he requires to put his name n my mum name together of the house
how come there is such a free lunch in this world??!!!
now my mum cant take out such a large sum of money
thus,that's y my father now like a mad person
i juz could not understand him why he wants to buy such a expensive house
which is cant afford by us...
according to the banker,we need to pay nearly rm2500 installment per month
hey,that's a big amount,k?

now really dun know wat to do
juz now i also skip my tuition class
as my family is too messing
my father scold my mum till the whole neighbourhood can hear
n she was sitting there crying n crying
how can i leave her there alone??!!
haiz...messed up
if my mum choose to leave this house
i will the first person who raise the hands up
although i may lose the chance to study degree
i'm also feel that its worth
so jiejie,hope u can c this post
n called bec to comfort mummy
n agree with her whatever path she chooses
she has been tolerate with him almost 23years
this is enough for her

while we are small,we were very poor
so father always quarrel with mum regarding to the money stuff
but now they have a business
have plenty of money ade
also quarrel at all the times
i'm totally fed up n speechless
help us,GOD=(
give my mum energy to let her continue her life happily
comfort her n save her life..

my sleepy life

hai hai hai~~~
sry for neglecting my blog for one week time
paiseh paiseh
my life seems to be messed up from thursday
haiz...
coz that night i slept at 530am
felt guilty until now
i knew that it was not good for my health
but i juz cant fell in sleep
so have phone chit-chating with bi til 530am
but we have a good time
as we chat about our story from knowing each other
until together
sweet=)

anyway,this has made the next few days messed up
once u lack of sleeping one night
the following days will be messed up
i totally lost my energy n start to feel guilty
but i have hanging-out with my bestie-yanfen during friday
we went to sunway carnival
we have some shopping n a movie over there
the movie we watched-happy go lucky
was pretty disappointed us
the movie seems to encourage us to gamble
huh==!!!

anyway,yanfen bought her a blouse n i got nothing=(
as i have over-spent this week
but i have fell in love in a SEMBONIA bag during my shopping
which i still missed it until now
whatever i m doin
surely i will thinking of it
wakakaka
it attracts me so much n deeeppppp
anyway,i will go bec n buy it
hahaha
cannot fight with the temptation
sry..i feel more guilty
hahaha
anyway,have a memorable time with her
n we have shared many our story to each other
as we really did not have a formal chat since a long long time ago
hahaha..
always feel reluctant to her
once i think of her will leave here very soon
to further her studies in KL
luckily she didnt went to korea
if not,will dun have chance to c her ade..wakaka
thx GOD

haih~~(i'm nyoing).haha..
now feel so exhausteddd~~
n nearly die
2nite business was pretty good
coz 2day is a public holiday
so~~~i need to have my lovely sleep ade
bye guys=)sweet sweet dream ya^^