finally gt back myself in this blog again
time flies n my heart is dead
encountered a huge problem in my 4 years relationship
i dun know when the problem was starting between us
everything goes wrong
i started to lose my appetite
which made me put off 4kg in just 2weeks
a bowl of porridge is too enough for me per day
no mood for everything
i felt wanna going back home when i just step to my working place
i felt wanna going back home too when i just step into my students' house
i felt like trying to tell my students' parents that i dun wan to teach tuition anymore
but i knew that this is very irresponsible
so i m still not dare to tell
nobody knows wat i wan
even myself
enrolled myself in the degree program at Inti Penang
felt like it is so impossible for me
coz i really made up my mind to study at KL
when i completed my diploma program
but now i have chosen penang instead of KL
is because i was being hurt until so deep
with sharp words,sharp words n sharp words
until my heart cannot endured with any of them
so it became dead
without my realization
sorry if u felt that i have hurt u too
but please dun despise on the sharp words that u spoke to me
its really hurt
anyway,need to say a big TQ to u
for being on my side in these 4years
u taught me lots of things
u made me know how big is this world
u made me know girls should pamper themselves
with beautiful dresses,bags,shoes,perfume,nice food etc
but now i think is the time to let go this love
i m so stressful in these couples of months
even felt very worry when chit-chatting with friends at fb or through SMS
not dare to reveal my secrets n share all my unhappy things with friends
coz i knew that u will check on my conversation
i will just delete all the phone msg instantly once there r guys' msg in
i m fear to be controlled even more strictly
this is enough for me
i dun wan to lie,but i m forced to lie
i just wan a little freedom but wat i get
is a stricter,smaller n narrower social network
anyway,felt very happy when u told me that u will set me free
n i promised u to have one month to reconsider u
i will think carefully b4 making the last decision=)
now i just told myself
i can do everything that i like,
but just no crying
SOOO,
wish me all the best^^
